Jenny A

I have really have no clue where to begin except from the beginning. I was a little girl when I knew there was something different about me. I had tons of mood swings and got in a lot of trouble when I was young. My parents felt they had no control. The truth is neither did I. I was sexual abused by my step brother and I never told anyone till much later and then my life just went upside down. I am a twin and my identical twin sister denies me her friendship. She I believe is scared of knowing what is wrong. She gets really mad, really fast and she has no control and she believes there is no problem. I miss my sister and I wish we could be close, but I can dwell on her because it brings me so slow.

I have been in numerous abusive relationships and survived. I lost a baby at 3 weeks because one of my boyfriends at the time used me as a punching bag. I survived. I have had 3 surgeries to remove cancer of the ovaries and have to have a 4th soon. I believe this time it will be the last because I am having the left ovary taken out. And I was told that I may not have children and I survived this.

I recently got married and it was a rocky relationship from the start. He put his friends and drinking before me and I always came last. So that of course didn't last because then I ended up in the hospital for trying to kill myself.

I am now living with my parents and starting over. The new start. I have a job and plan to go to school this fall to be a vet's assistant. I am really excited. I go to the doctor and take my medicine every day. It is hard every day for me, but I am now determined to make something of myself. I hope by sharing this story that I help someone see that no matter what happens you can survive. Just look within and find that strength and it is there and grab on to it and go forward. Thanks for giving me the time to share. Thanks for all your stories too I find them all inspiring!